nuts

Kui ma ütlesin millalgi, et kuulan raadiot (R2) vaid autos, siis unustasin mainida, et teen seda ka köögis mütates.

Ja aitäh, doktor Koit (Raudsepp), jällegi heade lugude eest!

Oli see vist üleeile, kui köögis mütates jõudis minu kõrvu see lugu. Minu uus lemmiklugu Marley'lt, no tõesti ülimõnus. Terve aja seda kuuldes oli smile näos ja on seda ka praegu.

Mis tuletas mulle meelde, et peaksin oma pidevas uue muusika otsingus vist siiski reggae't kuulama, kuigi tundus, et see pole praegu sobivaim. Õigupoolest pole ma pärast perioodi, mil aasta otsa põhiliselt vaid reggae't (ja dancehall'i) kuulasin, reggae't eriti üldse kuulanud. Sest see teeb minu pea veel rohkem pilve ja ma hõljun veelgi rohkem...ja seda küll vaja pole, eks ole.

Aga kuna mind tabas mingi kummaline ja pigem negatiivne tunne ja siin klaasistunud pilgul vahin, siis ei jää muud üle. Tund aega üritasin midagi teha ja tundus, et panen ikka täitsa mööda ja lisaks tekkis mingi veider ja ebameeldiv hullutunne. Lõpetasin selle asja tänaseks, sest tundus, et ma olen liiga omas mullis ja rikun kõik lihtsalt ära. Väga veidraks läks igatahes.

Parem siis juba naeratada omaette nagu opakas kui lihtsalt vahtida üht punkti.

Tõtt-öelda on selline muusika praegusesse hetke ideaalne...deem.

Täna oli lihtsalt superilus ilm ja päev. Leidsin ühe huvitava koha, kus oleks suurepärane chillida (lugeda, päevitada või lihtsalt lebotada): vesi igas suunas, absoluutne häirimatus, vaikus ning linnulaul. Rääkimata päikesest ja soojusest. Õigupoolest ma müttasingi terve aja vee ääres (no wonder), kopratammesid vahtisin ja hüppasin pidevalt üle kraavide. Muidugi panin seal silma peale kohtadele, kuhu veel tahan minna, kuid täna jäi minemata. Järgmine kord kaameraga, nii 1-3 nädala pärast, siis kui kõikjal on juba suurepärane roheline müür ümber ja plätud jalas, lähen läbi vee :D Ohjah, kuidas ma ikka (liikuvat) vett armastan, eriti kui see on metsas, kus kedagi pole. Koprad, linnulaul, rohelus ja päikselaigud kaldaservadel. Viimasel ajal veab jälle kohe väga metsa ära. Sinna, kus tundide viisi mitte ühtki inimest ei kohta. Kedagi ei kohta peale metsloomade ja linnulaulu. Ja see on supervabastav. Täielik häirimatus. Ideaalne! 

Kuulsin täna esimest korda sel aastal käolaulu ning sama kehtib oma toast vapsiku ära ajamise kohta (hakkab pihta). Ma ei teagi, mis puu see on, mis praegu õitseb, aga lõhnab igatahes äraütlemata magusalt ja meeldivalt. Seal seistes, helideks käo kukkumine, suure parve mesilaste sumisemine ja vee vulin, tekkis kohe tahtmine seda heli lindistada. 

Oh kevade, kevade, kevade!

Hakkab ära kammima...

Eks see hommik algas juba imelikult. Ma pole nii hilja ärganud vist juba viimased pool aastat. Tegelikult ärkasin 3 tundi varem, kuid jäin miskipärast uuesti magama ning ärgates oli tunne nagu sügavast talveunest üles pekstud karul. Lisaks "what the fuck??!!" tunne, kui vaatasin kella. Täielik lammas.

Bob Marley & The Wailers - High Tide Or Low Tide 

In high seas or-a low seas,
I'm gonna be your friend
I'm gonna be your friend
In-a high tide or-a low tide,
I'll be by your side
I'll be by your side


Sellega seoses üks intervjuu Bob'iga, mida ma olen aastate jooksul vaadanud jumal teab mitu korda. Iga kord seda vaadates naeran nagu napakas, täpselt nagu ta isegi. Tõtt-öelda ma muutun iga kord selliseks, kui ma reggaet kuulan. Tõtt-öelda olen ma terve selle postituse kirjutamise aja selline olnud. Selline napakas naer ja "oma mull" nagu 00:15-00:20 muutub läbivaks ja nägu läheb kangeks juba pidevast smailist:D

Bob Marley Interview Norway

Pole ime, et jutt tuli eriti tobe ja lapsik seekord. This is me.

Khm, viimane selline napakas kord meenub korrast, kui istusin TÜ raamatukogus, pidin midagi tõsist tegema, kuid lõpetasin sellega, et naeratasin ja naersin omaette nagu ogar, kuulasin reggae't ja närisin pähkleid...normaalne. Eating nuts, I am nuts. Indeed!

Hahaa....ja Norra (intervjuu):D

Veel sellega seoses...Mulle meenus alles paar päeva tagasi, et kuskil ühikatoas on maniakaalselt seinale joonistatud naivistlikud mäekünkad, 2 maniakaalset ratturit sinna otsa rühkimas ja alla kirjutatud "august 2011". Ja sihtkoht oli Norra...(kuna ma Rootsist nii huvitatud polnud) Ehk siis "Norra august 2011" . Aga naivistlikuks joonistuseks ta jäigi.

Hahaa, kui ühe inimesega vastavasse hoogu satuks, siis võiks taas maniakaalselt hüüatada "Skandinaaaaaaaviaaaaaa!!!! Määääeeeeeed!!"

Breivikust nii palju, et kuigi tema tunnistusi näha ei saanud, siis (vist) täies mahus  ja norra keeles saab neid lugeda ikkagi.

Näiteks siin ("ord for ord" kastike)
Kohtuistung päev 2

Selle lehekülje vasakust ülanurgast saab siis kõigi päevade kohta vaadata (kui klikata vastaval numbril)

Vaadates ohvrite pilte, tekib küsimus, et kuidas ta küll suutis nad nii kergesti maha lasta. Ma poleks seda eales suutnud. Kõik nad tunduvad nii toredad ja nooruse elujõudu täis inimesed.

Uut ABB kohtuprotsessis

Kohus tahab rohkem Breiviku lapsepõlve kohta teada, sest peab seda oluliseks tema isiku väljakujunemisel. Kui ma õigesti aru sain, siis nad tahavad teda ennast ka tunnistajana kasutada ehk siis Breivik saab jälle sõna.

Edit: Vist siiski Breivik ei saa sõna, vaid ainult psühhiaater, kes talle hinnangu andis lapsepõlves.
Ei tea, ei mõika norra keelt üldse.

Breiviku kohtuprotsessi allikad

Ma peaks vist mingi eraldiseisva Breiviku-blogi avama...

Lihtsalt mõtlesin, et panen igaks juhuks need lingid, kust näha/lugeda saab, kui mõni huviline neid veel teadma ei peaks.

Otseülekanne kohtusaalist (paremal väike videokastike)
Trygve Sorvaag'i twitteripostitused kohtusaalist
Tweet'id otse kohtusaalist vol 2

Islamist ja matriarhaadist

Khm, ikka ma räägin (veidi kaudsemalt) sellest teemast.
Õigemini mitte mina ei räägi, vaid Urmas Espenberg räägib oma artiklites.
Juba teine artikkel teemadel, mille üle Breivik nii väga südant valutab..?

Uue matriarhaadi ähvardavad visioonid
Islam ja immigrandid võtavad Euroopa üle

Breiviku tsitaadid

„To people with no knowledge of the whole manifesto, what I´ve written probably sounds insane.“

Mõtlesin, et panen need kirja ära ja siis vähemalt mõnda aega ma seda teemat loodetavasti ei puuduta.

Jällegi, kui sa EI TAHA lugeda Breiviku kohta, siis ÄRA seda postitust lihtsalt loe. Eriti arvestades, et siin on tema enda jutt ja kohati võib päris karm olla.

Muide, avastasin, et mingid inimesed koguvad Breiviku vabastamiseks allkirju! On huumor! Veel naljakam oli vastav särk...

Oleks päris lõbus kuulata nende inimeste kogemusi, kes on julgenud sellise särgiga tänavale kõndima minna:D

Arvestades seda, et nende fännide eesmärk on 9000 allkirja kohtule anda ja siiani on neid vaid 300, siis nad võivad vaid unistada, et sinna midagi koguneb. Eestist oli 2 allkirja.

http://www.thepetitionsite.com/1/Free-Breivik/

Manifesti asukohta ma siin ei jaga - kes otsib, see leiab.

Edasi Breiviku mõtted:

„Noticing that the testo withdrawal is contributing to increased aggressiveness. As I'm now continuing with 50mg it will most likely pass. I wish it would be possible to somehow manipulate this effect to my advantage later on when it is needed. Because the state seems to very efficiently suppress fear. I wonder if it is possible to acquire specialized "aggressiveness" pills on the market. It would probably be extremely useful in select military operations, especially when combined with steroids and ECA stack...! It would turn you into a superhuman one-man-army for 2 hours!<3“

Ehk siis, nagu me teame, oli tema eesmärk rünnaku ajaks saavutada võimalikult hea vorm. Olla suur, tugev ja hirmutav (183 cm). Sellest ka steroidide õgimine.

„Later that day, while I was watching an episode of True Blood, I saw a large van driving by the house and parking next to my car. There was at least 4 people inside. Nice, I thought; it's probably a SWAT team coming to skull-fuck me. The farmer must have tipped them off... Thank God, it was only 4 Polacks looking for worked and I sent them on their way. It would have been tempting to hire them to mix my ANALFO...<3, hadn't it been for the fact that they would have understood what was up:-)“

Tema põhilised stressimaandamisvahendid oli hea toit, šokolaad (oli isegi saare peal kaasas), arvutimängud, seriaalid, muusika kuulamine, jalutuskäigud ja meditatsioon. 

„Considering the fact that I am currently working on the most dreadful task, I bought a lot of exquisite food and candy today. I really need to recharge my batteries and increase my morale before initiating the ANALFO mixing. Good food and candy is a central aspect of my reward system which keeps me going. It has proven efficient so far. Occasionally, if I'm really not keen on doing a specific sub task, I take a red bull, a shake of noXplode or an ECA stack - to get a jump start before jumping into something I'm not looking forward to - for example extremely lame or labour intensive tasks or tasks involving great risk of injury or death.“

Mõni päev enne rünnakuid:

„Exhausted!!! Good workout though. Im drinking 4 x protein shakes per day now to maximize muscle generation. At this point in time I should be fearful, but I'm just too exhausted to think much about it.“

2 päeva enne missiooni:

„Went to a higher quality restaurant in the southern town and feasted. Yummy! Ive been working extremely hard the last few days and I'm completely exhausted. I have been using ECA stack to help keep this pace. Looks like I will have to take one more today...“

Irv, mida lõpupoole tema päevik jõudis, seda tihemini käis ta kuskil restoranis gurmeetamas.

„If all fails, I will initiate my career with a private security firm in conflict zones to acquire maximum funds in the shortest period of time to repay the debts. First coming costume party this autumn, dress up as a police officer. Arrive with insignias:-) Will be awesome as people will be very astonished:) Side note; imagine if law enforcement would visit me the next days. They would probably get the wrong idea and think I was a terrorist, lol :o)“

Üks järjekordne paranoiahetk, kus ta enda meelest nägi eraautodes politseinikke:

„I stopped 50 meters north of the main house and I was shocked at the sight that awaited me...! The barn door was wide open!!! Someone was here! They were probably circling me right now or waiting for me inside the main house! I waited 20 minutes with the fog light aimed straight at the direction I expected them to come from. Perhaps they are not here, maybe they just installed monitoring equipment like they often do? I entered the house, picked up the glock and searched the house and the barn. Nothing. I began searching for monitoring equipment, nothing... Paranoia can be a good thing, or it can be a curse. The barn door had probably been opened by the wind. I decided then and there that I would not allow paranoia to get the best of me again. If they were to come for me one day, there was really nothing I could do about it, so it would not be constructive to worry about it.“

Paranoia vol 2:

„I saw a car driving through the property while I was surfing the net.As I went to greet him I noticed he was taking pictures of the farm. He, around 50-60, said he was a tourist wanting to take landscape pictures. His actions and body language indicated however that he was lying. My instinct told me that he was a police officer. I offered him coffee and suggested he should go down to the river bank as it was the optimal place for taking photos. I noticed that he continued to take pictures of the farm. When he approached the house I chatted with him again. From what I understood, reading his body language and between the lines, he worked for the police and he was following up on the "marijuana farm" case. He disclosed that his daughter was a drug-sniffer-dog trainer. He was probably taking pictures in relation to this case. I told him that some people had set up a marijuana farm here a few years back. He seemed surprise, although he probably knew that already.“

Tema ebaõnnestumisi oli ka alati naljakas lugeda. 

Pärast seda, kui välk tal arvuti rivist välja lõi:

„I prayed for the first time in a very long time today. I explained to God that unless he wanted the Marxist-Islamic alliance and the certain Islamic takeover of Europe to completely annihilate European Christendom within the next hundred years he must ensure that the warriors fighting for the preservation of European Christendom prevail. He must ensure that I succeed with my mission and as such; contribute to inspire thousands of other revolutionary conservatives/nationalists; anti-Communists and anti-Islamists throughout the European world.“

Mõni päev hiljem, fucking hilarious:D

„When I was about to log into the site of the 10th and last credit card provider my PC went poof and the power went down in the house! Seconds later I heard a large thunder. What the hell, not again!!! And it isn't even raining ffs. I was able to get the PC running again without problems but my DSL-modem short circuited from the lightning strike as an electrical surge went through the phone line again. How is it possible to be this unlucky?! Only two hours after I've had my PC fixed nature comes and rapes me again... Thank god it was only my DSL-modem was destroyed as I have two extra DSL-modems left...;P“

Kõige rohkem naersin siis, kui teda tabas järjestikune ebaõnnelaine ja ta kirjutas:

„Fuck, why can't anything go as planned????“

Tema missiooni ohtlikumast poolest (milline see mitteohtlik pool oli:D)

„At this point in time I was very concerned for a potential detonation. If the barrel of AL powder was to detonate and I somehow survived, I would probably lose both arms instantly severely. The blast wave/flame would probably cauterize my wounds resulting in an extended and extremely painful death. The most pragmatical approach to solving this potential problem was to place my loaded glock 34 close to the work area. And if I survived a detonation, losing both my arms, I could still fire a round to my head, in order to prevent un-necessary suffering using my toe to trigger.“

Järjekordne takistuselaine:

„I woke up at 11.00 and checked my phone. There was an SMS sent 09.30 from Tonje, the owners girlfriend. She said she was ON HER WAY UP to pick up some equipment from the barn!!! Omfg; considering the fact that it's a 2-2,5 hour's drive from the capital she would be here in about half an hour!!! I'm so fucked! She has a large storage room in the back of the barn and she would need to pass all my ANFO bags to get there. I would need 12 hours minimum to relocate the 1,2 tons of ANFO, not to mention de-construct my chemistry rig, fume hood, fan and clean up all the beakers etc spread all around. And the living room is full of yellow stains. It seems I will be left no choice than to use my glock and initiate the evacuation plan! I called her up. Luckily she hadn't left yet. Thank God! I fed her a story which resulted in us agreeing that she would come on Monday around 20.00. That was a real close one... I spent the rest of the day on purifying another batch of picric acid and relocating 1,2 tons of ANFO bags, storing them in the storage area between the corn silo and another room.“

Järjekordne huumor:

„All these chemical fumes cant possible be very healthy... I would have probably died from cancer within the next 12 months;P“

„There was a relatively hot girl on the restaurant today checking me out. Refined individuals like myself is a rare commodity here so I notice I do get a lot of attention in both the southern and the northern town. It's the way I dress and look. There are mostly unrefined/un-cultivated people living here. I wear mostly the best pieces from my former life, which consists of very expensive brand clothing, LaCoste sweaters, piques etc. People can see from a mile away that I'm not from around here.“

Putukafoobiast, lisaks sellele, et tal on "serious issue" ämblikega. Ma arvan, et kõige hullem karistus oleks talle, kui ta peaks need 21 aastat putukaid ja ämblikke täis ruumis veetma, haahaa.

„This house is infested with beetles. Just now I was about to reach for a chocolate in my goodie bag and a beetle had crawled in, ffs. And an hour ago, when I was putting on my nitril gloves to do another DDNP purification cycle, something was crawling in one of the fingers:-( Needless to say, I freaked out... After that I started killing every little insect in view. And I'm up to 18 just in the last hour...“

„However, complete isolation and asocial behaviour can also defeat the whole purpose if you end up losing the love for the people you have sworn to protect. Because, why would you bless your people with the ultimate gift of love if every single person hates you?“

Evakuatsiooniplaanist:

"Considering the fact that I had wasted so many days and literally been at a standstill I felt a sudden need to create an evacuation plan as I didn't have any. What would I do if the owners wife caught me, or the neighbour or anyone else? I needed to work out a plan for this potential scenario. The evacuation plan involved a 10 minute evacuation. I would have to back my largest backpack with survival gear and relating equipment, including survival rations, 10L of water, weapons, ammo and suitable clothing. I started to prepare the above.“

"I completed packing an evacuation kit. I felt a lot more safe and prepared for any emergency once I was done. When I returned from the southern town later that day, I saw two military 12 man teams, armed to the teeth, just 2000m south of my farm. The largest military base in the country is located just a few kilometers north-east of my farm and their territory extends almost all the way down to my property. They have notified all their neighbours,me included, that they are conducting a large military training session as to prepare a new division of soldiers for the war against the Taliban and al-Qaida in Afghanistan. It's quite ironic being situated practically on top of the largest military base in the country. It would have saved me a lot of hassle if I could just "borrow" a cup of sugar and 3kg of C4 from my dear neighbour:-)“

Veel endale suunatud karmi huumorit (väävelhappe transportimisest)

„Picked up at the selected suppliers, transporting the 25L container was risky as it is considered dangerous goods. If you crash your car with this load and the container breaks open you will end up like the melting guy in the Robocop movie:D The only bonus of course would be that you won’t have to invest in a new Freddy Kruger face mask for next Halloween…“

Jätkub:

„I will take all precautions though and ensure to be wearing full chemical hazmat suit and full respirator with additional splash proof face mask. Although, I guess worst case would be that I can finally audition for the next Predator movie…<3“

Ja ta ostis 190 pakki (!) aspiriini, et vajalikul määral pikriinhapet saada:

„This was the most lol task ever. The main problem was that there are only 30-40 drug stores in my city and only 20 of them are within walking range of each other. I first attempted to purchase up to 10 packages per drugstore but with little success, due to the fact that it is not legal to sell more than 2 packages per customer. Larger purchases require a written notice from a medical professional. I ended up creating a “walking route” which included the purchase of 3 packages per drug store. Route covered 20 drug stores and took around 4 hours of constant walking to complete. Doing this by car would have taken even longer due to parking limitations in my city, and bicycle was out of the question as it was too much snow. I ended up using 4 full days (1 x route x 4 times) before I had enough aspirin. I waited 7-14 days before starting the purchase route again as I wanted to avoid being recognized by the pharmacy clerks.“

„The only bonus I guess is that by eliminating the silencer aspect allows me to order and equip a bayonet instead. So I guess; “Marxist on a stick” will soon become an exclusive Knights Templar Europe trademark:D.“

Ja tõepoolest, tema Ruger Mini (hüüdnimega Gungnir)otsas oligi tääk...

Siin selgitab, miks ta seda võitlust peab:

„To be honest, if I felt that other people could do my job I would not do what I do, that I can guarantee you. I don’t want to do what I do, I would rather focus on starting a family and focus on my career again. But I can’t do that as long as I feel like a person caught in a burning spaceship with nowhere to go. If you see the ship is burning you don’t ignore it and start cooking noodles do you? You put out the fire even if it endangers your life. You don’t enjoy putting out the fire but it is your duty to yourself and your fellow crewmen. And let’s say your crewmen have been infected with a rare virus that shuts down their rational senses and they try to stop you from putting out the fire. You can’t really allow yourself to be stopped by any of them as it will lead to your collective death. You will do anything to put out that fire despite of the fact that they are trying to stop you.“

His daily routine:

„A usual day for me involves email farming, writing, sharing “moderate” resources from my book on debate groups to coach fellow cultural conservatives, smoking, eating chocolate lol, taking a daily 1 hour walk/motivational meditation and doing some occasional battlegrounds in WoW on my badass Horde resto druid“

Enne seda, kui Prahasse relvi hankima läks. Hahaa, pretty ironic, isn't it?

„I can’t say I’m looking forward to this trip. I’ve heard that Prague is the most dangerous capital in Europe with a lot of very brutal and cynical criminals. There is a chance ill get killed down there by some desperate criminal individual.“

Järgneb üsna koomiline relvaärikatse:D

„So only one thing remains; I need to find my weapons connection within 4 days…! I failed miserably yesterday; I went to two brothels and a couple of clubs. The people I approached got really nervous and thought I was either a cop or completely nuts, lol. I have had to refine my approach pitch. It started off really bad. Whatever you do when trying to establish a gun connection, never be too direct;

Hello there; I want to buy an AK-47, 4 frag grenades, 1 glock and AP bullets. (Guy will run for the hills before you have completed the last sentence:-)“

Siis tuli relvad hankida seaduslikult ja Norrast:

„On the application form I stated: “hunting deer”.It would have been tempting to just write the truth; “executing category A and B cultural Marxists/multiculturalist traitors” just to see their reaction:P“

„I’ve now ordered 50 ml, 99% pure liquid nicotine from a Chinese online supplier. 3-4 drops will be injected in hollow point rifle bullets, which will effectively turn it into a lethal chemical weapon.“

Mulle tundub, et seda eelnevat ta vist siiski ei teinud, sest pole kuskilt kuulda olnud?

Algselt ta rääkis kogu aeg, et "missioon" oli plaanitud sügiseks, kuid ma ei tea, miks rabistamiseks läks. Igast suunast kuhjuvad võlad vist. Nojah, surmaga lõppevaks oli see missioon ka plaanitud või õigemini eeldatud.

„It has been decided that the operation will be effectuated in Autumn, 2011.“

„I have reserved 2000 Euro from my operations budget which I intend to spend on a high quality model escort girl 1 week prior to execution of the mission. I will probably arrange that just before or after I attend my final martyrs mass in Frogner Church. It will contribute to ease my mind as I imagine I will get tense and very nervous. It is easier to face death if you know you are biologically, mentally and spiritually at ease.“

Kaksikelu emaga koos elades, meenutab Dexterit:D

„My armour is dug down in the wilderness somewhere and I will soon dig down another pelican crate with my weapons, once I get them. I have a large Pelican chest in my room where I have secured items that might raise questions. Besides that, everything is on my PC and individual storage pins which I keep stored safe in the attic (they are 3 very small USB pins which are stored inside walls and properly concealed). They contain the required information for each of the coming phases. As soon as I have completed one phase I extract the information for the next phase from my pin, after I destroy my old hard drive. This has worked flawlessly so far. However, when I will start the actual manufacturing phase in a few months time, I will have no choice but to rent a cottage and/or small farm as I will require total anonymity while manufacturing and storing tons of materials.“

Veel moraali ja motivatsiooni kõrgel hoidmisest:

„My concerns and angst relating to this phase impacted my motivation, to a point where I had to initiate specific counter-measures to reverse the loss of morale and motivation. I decided that the correct approach to reversing it was to initiate another DBOL steroid cycle and intensify my strength training. I also spent some time locating and downloading some new inspirational music. A lot of new vocal trance tracks and some inspirational music by Helene Bøksle. In addition; I decided I would allow myself to play the newly launched expansion: World of Warcraft – Cataclysm. The combination of these three counter measures, in addition to my 3 weekly indoctrination/meditation walks, resulted in my morale and motivation again peaking.“


Tema tegevuse põhieesmärk:

„The actual military operation is also a sub-task as well as it is a marketing method for the distribution of this compendium among other things.“

„It’s really important that you focus on enjoying life and having fun in this process. Being a bitter old goat behind a computer will only drive you to depression, and defeat. Convert your frustration and anger to motivation and resolve. Be positive!“

"I’m an extremely patient and a very positively minded individual. I have obviously changed my ways over the years and am now driven by idealistic goals and work for the interests of my countrymen and all Europeans. Most people would not acknowledge the work yet (nor are they likely to appreciate it during my lifetime) but this is an irrelevant fact for me. With time they will understand what is going on around them and that what we are trying to accomplish will benefit not only them, but most importantly their children and grandchildren."

Enda vigadest:

"As for current flaws in my personality I guess have many stereotypical flaws. F example;I sound quite self righteous at times and I don’t like admitting it when I’m wrong, although I usually do. I still have a relatively inflated ego, with a constant need to feed on an intellectual level. This is a quite common flaw and I try to suppress it although I know I fail as most people do. Also, over the years I’ve generally been perceived as quite arrogant (even downright unpleasant at times, the last few years). This is likely due to the fact that I do not care as much as I did for creating or preserving social relationships due to my life choice. I guess it is also due the way I choose my rhetorical approaches, which is to a certain degree only an indirect defensive mechanism. I, as most people, like to think I have a superb self confidence. But people who show signs of arrogance usually often use deliberate defensive manifestation to camouflage intellectual or social insecurity or perhaps they just don’t care. I guess the root to a majority of human flawsis linked to mans fundamentally flawed nature. We want acknowledgement, appreciation and/or love so we strive to be as perfect as we can be. These human instincts often undermine the need for a pragmatical mindset. As for social skills or skills facilitating interaction and communication with oterhs; I know I mastered them a lot better before I started my self-engulfing studies several years ago."

Järgnevad mõttearendused tänapäeva pealiskaudsest ühiskonnast:

"I used to be a relatively self centered, arrogant individual who didn’t care much for anyone except my closest friends and family. I used to have pretty shallow ambitions where the goal of personal acquisition of wealth, gaining admiration from other shallow individuals and the attempt of gaining unlimited access to sex and parties was the driving force behind my existence.Pretty pathetic when you think about it really, but it’s as we know quite common in a society in complete moral decay where you are completely detached from your extended family, your community, the Church and with little national and cultural identity and pride etc. It’s a natural result of a fanatically consumerist society where the highest virtue and the essence of your existence is based on feeding your own ego."

"When I was at the top of my game, I had everything. At least, I thought I had everything when in essence I had lost everything. The problem was that you simply want more and more, you never get enough and you end up being put down when you are unable to exceed past achievements. It’s a never ending cycle you really can’t beat. As for politics you deliberately place your head in the sand. You know what’s going on but your very existence (your image) is based around the “game” which requires you to be 100% politically correct."

"Most people going that road realises at one point in life that it’s a pretty shallow existence. They long for something better but are trapped by the unofficial “rules of the game” propagated through every aspect of society. At that point you are 30-40 years + without a family, without children. It’s the destructive and suicidal “Sex and the City” lifestyle (modern feminism, sexual revolution)which we are taught to revere as the truth. In that setting, men are not men anymore,but metro sexual and emotional beings that are there to serve the purpose as a never-criticising soul mate to the new age feminist woman goddess. The perfect matriarchy has now been fulfilled and complete equality has finally been achieved."

"Anyway, I came to realise many of my flaws years ago and acted upon them. I have never been happier than I am now. A flawed, destructive and suicidal society will breed mentally damaged, corrupt and self serving individuals."


"I know I will die fighting the overwhelming cultural Marxists/multiculturalist forces in phase 1 and that’s not a problem for me at all. I have prepared mentally for a very long time and I will gladly sacrifice my life for the benefit of my European brothers and sisters. My love for them exceeds my own self serving interests. That’s not the kind of person I used to be, but it’s the type of person I have become."


"It’s essential that we don’t allow the passion to control us. It’s critical that we are cool and act rationally with a long term perspective."


"As for individuals, I admire anyone who contributes to further humanity scientifically, culturally, technologically, militarily and economically. I admire individuals who actc selflessly and/or contribute through personal sacrifice in one way or the other."

"Be patient and don’t let short term impatience or greed be your undoing.Learn from past mistakes. Sometimes it’s best to seek a gradual transformation rather than turning everything upside down too quickly."

"Since I broke with my normal life (old life) I have lived quite ascetic, a lifestyle that wouldn’t appeal to that many. However, if I wanted to I could have more or less everything I set my mind on. I consider myself to be very resourceful, economically privileged, well educated (although I would probably have to formalise myeducation if I ever wanted to work for someone else), fit and very happy with my physical appearance. Nevertheless, when I had acquired my millions (which was my oldgoal in life) I found it all to be very superficial and disappointing. I grew tired of “the game”, which re-enforced my opinion that I should rather strive to become a better man. I grew from being a so called “arrogant self centered fuck” who didn’t care about anyone except myself, my family and friends to something better. I wanted to improve myself morally and seek a more responsible level so I became a better man. I had to pay a high price though. I left several aspects of my old life behind and had to completely re-establish myself on an existential level."

" After all, a Justiciar Knight is not an ideologically insecure individual. A Justiciar Knight does not rely on constant babysitting or “patting on the back”. He is self driven and ideologically confident with proven daily rituals/meditation which keeps him going."


"I do not regret any of myactions or major life choices. In fact, I would do it all again, without any hesitation, if I was given the chance."

Teadis ette, et teda hulluks tembeldama hakatakse:

"I am fully aware that the media will attempt to label me as a nut. This is the most common strategy of combating political dissidents. I know that the cultural Marxists and the full force of the European multiculturalist mainstream media will do everything within their power to portray people like me as nothing more than delusional nut jobs. After all it’s their job to protect their interests. And they will succeed to a certain degree (we are currently too disorganised to counter their powerful propaganda machinery). I am fully aware that our current views are considered extreme. However, more spectacular operations will burden them and force public discussion. It will be increasingly harder for them to manipulate and distort the truth, or to prevent people from knowing what is going on. We are using brutal means because we have tried absolutely everything else. With time (in phase 2 when the Muslims have reached 20-50%) more and more people will dig deeper into our material and understand that we are right."


"The problem with today’s society is that it has become fanatically egalitarian. In our quest to appease everyone (except the traditional cultural group) we have created a habit and tradition of cheering mediocrity and weakness. Your position in the “victim hierarchy” decides your position in society. It’s an illogical and self defeating development."

"I do not approve of the super-liberal, matriarchal upbringing though as it completely lacked discipline and has contributed to feminise me to a certain degree."


"Erik’s (kasuvend) girlfriend though is a super-feminist and quite radical Marxist. We have had some very interesting conversations where she has almost physically strangled me:D"


"I consider myself to be a laid back type and quite tolerant on most issues. Due to the fact that I have been exposed to decades of multicultural indoctrination I feel a need to emphasise that I am not in fact a racist and never have been."

Oma aukoodeksist:

"I remember that pride and certain moral codexes/principles have always been very important to me. As a result, individuals with these traits appealed to me. If I ever got into trouble I expected my friends to back me up 100% without submitting or running away, as I would for them. Very few ethnic Norwegians shared these principles. They would either “sissy out”, allow themselves to be subdued or run away when facing a threat. This was an unacceptable scenario for me. If anyone threatened me or my friends, regardless if we were at a disadvantage, we would rather face our foes than to submit and lose face. If we did get beaten we would just rally our allies and get back at them later. Pride was more important than anything. This type of attitude gave us a big advantage. No one would risk messing with us, even the kids 2 years older.The majority of people who shared these principles of pride was the Muslim youths and the occasional skinhead. However, even back then, the Muslims outnumbered the skinheads 20 to 1. Being a skinhead was never an option for me. Their dress codes and taste of music was unappealing and I thought they were too extreme. I hated rock then and I still do."

"Oslo used to be a peaceful city. Thanks to the Norwegian cultural Marxist/multiculturalist regime they have transformed my beloved city into a broken city, a bunkered society, a multiculturalist shit hole where no one is safe anymore, to use blunt language."

Sellest, et ta pole kunagi vägivaldne olnud:

"As all my friends can attest to I wouldn’t be willing to hurt a fly and I have never used violence against others."


Sellest, et ei vihka mitte moslemeid, vaid islamit kui doktriini.
"I don’t feel anger at all towards Muslims, or so called Jihadi youth, as a result of this. In fact, I completely understand why they act in this manner. It is perfectly normal for many Muslims to behave this way as it is the Islamic way. Anyone with a basic understanding of Islam and Middle Eastern cultures, and who has lived in Muslim communities as a kafr/dhimmi can attest to this. The problem isn’t the individuals but the Islamic doctrines and culture. The problem can only be solved if we completely remove those who follow Islam. In order to do this all Muslims must “submit” and convert to Christianity. If they refuse to do this voluntarily prior to Jan. 1st 2020, they will be removed from European soil and deported back to the Islamic world."

Tema lähedased arvasid, et ta hoiab end isolatsioonis, kuna on sõltuvuses arvutimängust ja püüab seda varjata. Mõned neist olid kindlad, et ta püüab varjata mingit homoseksuaalset suhetXD

"Quite hilarious, as I am 100% hetero, but they may continue to believe what they want as it prevents them from asking more questions;))"

" I have been practising certain rituals and meditation to strengthen my beliefs and convictions. For me, the most common ritual is taking a long walk listening to my favourite music on my Ipod."



"Overcoming your fear is the most difficult task. It’s essential to prepare yourself mentally for this."



"Q: Name seven traits you consider most important as a cell operative:
A: Ideological confidence, patience, the ability to motivate yourself, keeping sensitive information to yourself, resourcefulness, being pragmatical and insightfulness in your own psyche."

Sellest, mis juhtub tõenäoliselt siis, kui ta peaks ellu jääma pärast oma "missiooni":

"I have been thinking about my post-operational situation, in case I survive a successful mission and live to stand a multiculturalist trial. When I wake up at the hospital, after surviving the gunshot wounds inflicted on me, I realize at least for me personally, I will be waking up to a world of shit, a living nightmare. Not only will all my friends and family detest me and call me a monster; the united global multiculturalist media will have their hands full figuring out multiple ways to character assassinate, vilify and demonize. They will possibly do everything they can to distort the truth about me, KT and our true objectives, and attempt to make even revolutionary conservatives detest me. They will label me as a racist, fascist, Nazi-monster as they usually do with everyone who opposes multiculturalism/cultural Marxism. However, since I manifest their worst nightmare (systematical and organized executions of multiculturalist traitors), they will probably just give me the full propaganda rape package and propagate the following accusations: pedophile, engaged in incest activities, homosexual, psycho, ADHD, thief, non-educated, inbred, maniac, insane, monster etc. I will be labeled as the biggest (Nazi-)monster ever witnessed since WW2."

"I have an extremely strong psyche (stronger than anyone I have ever known) but I am seriously contemplating that it is perhaps biologically impossible to survive the mental, perhaps coupled with physical torture, I will be facing without completely breaking down on a psychological level."

Järgnevad tunnistused kohtust (pole täpsed tsitaadid):


„Lost faith in democracy because all peaceful initiatives failed“

„My original plan failed 20-30 times. Was about to give up. Had to adjust.“

„The point was not to kill as many as possible, but to send a powerful signal and make sure compendium was distributed.“

...mis ei ole väga vastavuses nende tunnistustega:

„My goal was to kill 600 persons, Breivik says“

„Plan: to shoot enough people to scare people to the water, so that they would drown. Aim: Ppl killed by shooting should be minimum.“

„If government building had collapsed, I would have surrendered“

Tegelikult oli ju tema esialgne plaan pärast pommi lõhkamist mööda linna ringi sõita ja suvalisi inimesi maha kõmmutada, kuni politsei ta maha laseb.

„A hundred voices in my head said "don't do it, don't do it"

„Saying that after killing his first two victims he got into a state of shock. then continues the killing spree.“

"First shots were very difficult. Considered beforehand to listen to music on ipod, but needed to listen to my surroundings."

"If anyone had tried to resist, they could easily have neutralized me" Breivik tells court.“

Hmm, ühe tüübi, kes üritas talt vist relva käest rabada, lasi ta maha . Selle peale, kui üks salk tüdrukuid vastu püüdsid hakata, lasi ta ühele neist kuuli pähe. Nii et...

„If I had been a bearded jihadist, there would have been no need for a Psychiatric report, says Breivik“

Psühhiaatrite raportist:

„My impression was that they had concluded early. They started with conclusion ("Insane") and continued work to whithold concl.“

„If I had read about the person described, I would have agreed: That person belongs in mental hospital“

„A lot of the sentences makes me look like a retard. They´ve deliberately left out pronouns etc.“

„I would have been declared anti-social in any country.“

„Was "preparing" by looking at "terrible pictures" to visualize what he was about to start.“

„It is tough being here" says Breivik to prosecutor.

 „Breivik admits it is hard being in court listening to witnesses and seeing evidence.“

„I am no Jesus wanting to save the world. My pompous language might have made it easy for them to describe me as a "saviour"."

„I see myself as a "narcissist", but nothing "sickly".

„Psychiatrists believe Breivik invented "Knights Templar". Breivik says no. 6 people he mentioned are real. Two not arrested. Will attack.“

„I had a cosmetic operation on my nose when I was 21 years old. I was vain. Not any more.“

„I have not bought new clothes since 2005. Stopped being vain around that year.“

„Not concerned about mental hospital any more. Think people can see I am not insane.“

„I want to use my time in prison to write.“

„Do not expect me to break down. I have prepared myself mentally for years. Prepared for horrific pictures and accounts.“

„I considered politically motivated violence first time when I was 19 years old.“

„I have never been suicidal and will never be.“

Manifestis oli selline tegevuskava:

„the establishment of a national prison movement (preferably political).“

„7d. Escape from prison and initiate your “bonus operation”

Pärast kinnivõtmist hoiti teda ajutiselt kuskil, kust avanes vaade minarettidele. Ei, ta ei hakanud sellepärast märatsema, vaid tänas neid mõttes, sest see meenutas talle iga päev, miks ta peab võitlema. Ma arvan, et samamoodi mõjus talle ka see, kui need 40 000 inimest kohtumaja ette tema "vihatud" laulu leelotama tulid. Breiviku motivatsiooni ja võitlusinnu tõstmine oligi ilmselt nende inimeste eesmärk:D

Koomilisi kommentaare netiavarustest vol 2:

„Mul see breivik meeldib, kui saaks paneks ta meile siseministriks, asjad oleks aastaga korras.“

Järgnev kommentaar pärineb mingist kristlikust foorumist:

„I am talking in riddles only for those who do not have ears to hear.
like 9/11, this was planned first in heavens (clue: local heavens, astral, the airs of this planet)“

And quite hilarious:

„Why do those bad guys always have to babble that much about why they do something.
A 1500 page manifesto ?
Come on .. sounds like a James Bond movie villain.“

Hilarious vol 2 (selle kohta, et netis levivad pilaversioonid Breiviku manifestist):

„Too many of us already have the orginal. And it is brilliant, a gold mine of information“

"Pakun välja, et suurema osa siin kommenteerinute IQ jääb kahekohalise numbri võrra Breivikule alla."

See on üks Breiviku lemmikpalasid:

Helene Bøksle - Ere the World Crumbles

"Breivik writes of Bøksle's voice that it is the perfect sound to listen to when one commits acts of martyrdom During his trial he also testified that he uses this music, particularly the song "Ere the World Crumbles" when he meditates, as he did in preparation for his terrorist acts on 22 July 2011."


See, miks ta kohtus oma videot nähes nutma hakkas, oli tema sõnul ka selle muusika tõttu.


Ühes YouTube'is leiduvas fännivideos, mis demonstreerib pilte tema laborist ja relvadest, on taustamuusikaks...Enya:D

Breivikust väga pikalt ja laialt

                                       

Ei ole jälle...aga on ometi.

Mida rohkem ma sellele teemale mõtlen, seda rohkem mu huvi suureneb.

Nii et HOIATUS: kui sa EI taha lugeda Breiviku kohta, siis ÄRA lihtsalt loegi (seda postitust)! Eriti veel arvestades seda, et ma püüan asja lahata rohkem tema vaatepunktist, mitte anda mingit tüüpilist emotsionaalset, nn normaalset massireaktsiooni.

PS! Breivik'ut muide hääldatakse nagu /braivik/ mitte /breivik/ nagu kõik mittenorrakatest inimesed järjekindlalt teevad. Sama käib Utøya kohta, mis hääldub rohkem nagu /üütoja/ mitte /utoia/!! Üsna närvidele käib juba, kuigi ma norra keelest midagi ei tea. Aga ma ei hakkaks ka mingeid prantsuse/inglise nimesid hääldama nagu eesti keelt.

Ma täna ei hakka siin B. tsiteerima, vast järgmine kord.

Ütlen kohe ära, et ma ei hakka selles pikas ja segases postituses teda ülistama, kuid risti lööma samuti mitte. Vaadates erinevaid meediakajastusi ning lugedes inimeste arvamusi/kommentaare, tundub, et olen üsna erandliku vaatepunktiga asjale, kuid see mind ei üllata...Võib-olla satun või olen juba sattunud mõnda watchlist'i oma kahtlaselt positiivsete tekstide pärast, aga samas, meil pole siin USA.

Sellepärast ütlen kohe ka ära, et ma kohe kindlasti ei ole Breiviku jünger/pooldaja vms. Ei valuta südant islami invasiooni tõttu, peaasjalikult seetõttu, et meil sellist probleemi lihtsalt (veel) pole. Meil võrdväärseks probleemiks on ehk venelased, kuid ka selle pärast ma oma südant sellisel määral ei valuta nagu Breivik. Ja ilmselgelt ei viitsiks ma mitte kunagi kellegi tapmiseks või muul viisil hävitamiseks sellisel määral vaeva näha nagu tema. Poleks piisavalt järjekindlust ja eneseuskugi selleks, mis on omadused, mida temas imetlen..öelgu teised mida tahes.

Õigupoolest kuulun vist nende hulka, keda Breivik killimast ei kõhkleks:D Ehk siis ma olen tüüpiline enesekeskne, apoliitiline ja ükskõikne tuim egotsentrist, kes oma apaatsusega Breiviku poolt kardetavatele arengutele kaasa aitab. Ühesõnaga olen vist kategooria D reetur, tema määrangu järgi.

Mis mind selle case'i puhul häirib, on jällegi see, kuidas inimesed tohutult emotsionaalselt reageerivad. Nii emotsionaalselt, et selles reageeringus midagi muud polegi. "Jäle koletis", "kott pähe". Kui ma nüüd selle üle järgi mõtlen, siis tuleb tunnistada, et põhjus, miks minu suhtumine selline pole ja miks ma tahan ja suudan lugeda tema kirjutisi ja tunnistusi, peitub selles, et ma lihtsalt ei pea teda jäledaks koletiseks. Mitte et minu meelest poleks laste tapmine jõle, aga minu jaoks on tapmisel ja tapmisel ka teatav vahe. Lihtsalt inimese (kiire) surnuks tulistamine tundub suhteliselt leebe ja inimlik võrreldes paljude muude võigaste variantidega. Ma ei tea, kuidas ma antud isikusse siis suhtuksin, kui ta oleks kuratliku naudinguga neid lapsi seal piinanud ja nö praadinud...Pean siiski tunnistama, et tema plaan inimesel kaamera ees pea maha lõigata tundus..creepy.

Arvestades seda, et ma olen elu aeg olnud friik, "väärastunud põhimõtete", "haiglase mõttemaailmaga", "sadistlik, julm, kalk, tundetu" jne, siis on ehk arusaadav minu haiglane tõmme..khm..natuke teistsuguste inimeste vastu. Mistõttu pole imestada, et minu jaoks on haiglaselt huvitav kogu see kohtuprotssess ning ennekõike Breiviku isiksus ja kogu sündmuste (detailne) käik. Nn normaalne lugeja võib nüüd mõelda, et ma olen mingi haiglane julmurist hälvik, kellele meeldivadki inimeste kannatused, but that's not the case. Ma tahaksin teada iga üksikasja antud kodaniku mõttekäigust jms, sest mind huvitab tema psüühika ja ilmselt ei saaks ma vastuseid kõigile oma küsimustele enne kui ma oleks temaga ise tundide kaupa vestelnud. Samas, ma ei tahaks teada mitte midagi vägistajate, piinajate, lapsetapjate, pedofiilide, inimeste vangis hoidjate jne mõtetest, isikust. Antud kurjategijate puhul on minu silmis tegemist tõesti täiesti haiglaste ja jäledate koletistega.

Ma olen friik, ma tunnistan seda, aga ma suudaksin ja tahaksin kuulda, olles ise täiesti külm, kuidas ta seda tapmisprotsessi täpselt korraldas seal saarel ja mida neil hetkedel mõtles/tundis. Jällegi mitte sellepärast, et mulle kuidagi selline asi nagu kellegi tapmine vaimustust pakuks. Minu jaoks pole isegi jahimehed normaalsed inimesed, kuna kellegi tapmise nautimine on minu jaoks sügavalt ebanormaalne.

Aga rääkides Breivikust, siis ma lähtun tema vaatepunktist, mis ei tähenda, et ma seda jagaksin, vaid ma püüan lihtsalt näha asja tema nö tema kingadesse astudes. Veel lähtun ma sellest, et tegemist on ausa ja avameelse inimesega, kui välja arvata asjaolu, et ta oskab laitmatult valetada oma eesmärkide elluviimise nimel. Samas pole ta teinud midagi, et oma tulevast karistust kuidagigi kergendada, seega mõtlen, et ta räägibki täpselt nii, nagu ta mõtleb. Seega ma ei usu, et tegemist on inimesega, kes naudib tapmist, nagu mõned on arvanud. Ma ei usu, et ta on kogu oma ideoloogia lihtsalt tapmise õigustamiseks välja leiutanud. Kui teda uskuda, siis tema meelest on inimeste tapmine sama ebanormaalne nagu mis tahes inimese meelest. Kui teda uskuda, siis oli tal seda väga raske teha ning esialgu pidi ta selleks end lausa sundima ning sattus esimeste laskude järel šokki.

Mida mina arvan, on see, et ta tõsimeeli usubki oma ideoloogiasse ja peab seda väga pühaks (pisarad nähes oma videot), on sellesse teemasse äärmiselt tõsiselt ja pühadusega suhtunud, oma manifesti pikalt ja põhjalikult arendanud. Kui keegi viitsib tema 1500-leheküljelise manifesti läbi lugeda, siis ma arvan, et saab selgeks, et kogu tema tegevus ongi kantud usust sellesse ideoloogiasse. Noh, võib öelda, et see pühendumine on lausa maniakaalne ja obsessiivne. I should know:D 

Lühidalt võib öelda, et osad inimesed lihtsalt ongi altid radikalismile, maniakaalsusele ja obsessiivsusele. Arvestades Breiviku tegevust, võib julgelt öelda, et tema seda kõike on...Seetõttu tunduvadki sellised inimesed "normaalsetele" inimestele hullumeelsed. Kuid olen jätkuvalt seisukohal, et see, et inimene on tavapärasest erinevate seisukohtadega, ei tee temast veel hullumeelset. Kuna lõpetasin just "Vabariigi kodanike" (etv.err.ee'st järelvaadatav, 24. aprilli saade) vaatamise, jäi seal Aarne Rannamäe taoline mõtteavaldus silma. Ühesõnaga nimetas ta hullumeelseks Breiviku lahterdust süütute ja süüdi olevate surnute vahel.

Jätkuvalt arvan, et samamoodi võib absoluutselt iga mõrvari nimetada süüdimatuks ja hullumeelseks. 

Oled nn kiremõrvar, tapad oma naise petmise tõttu ära, sest usud, et ta on selle ära teeninud - oled süüdimatu ja hullumeelne. 

Oled Hitler, hävitad maniakaalselt juute - oled süüdimatu ja hull. 

Oled suvaline jõmm ja tapad kellegi raha saamise eesmärgil ära - ilmselgelt hull ja süüdimatu. Jne jne.

Ühesõnaga tundub olevat inimestel arvamus, et see, kui mõrvar kahetsust ei tunne ning peab oma tegusid jäägitult õigeks, teeb temast hullumeelse. Tõesti?

Kui Breivik nüüd kohtus lahinal nutaks ja põlvili andestust paluks kõigi ees, oma tegusid kahetseks, siis ta poleks (enam) süüdimatu?

Mis veel inimesi nii tohutult näib hämmastavat ja häirivat on tema emotsionaalne külmus. Mis paneb mind mõtlema, et kas siis tõesti kõik süüdivad mõrvarid on tapmishetkel olnud paanikas või muidu kontrollimatute, ebakindlate emotsioonide ja käitumisega? Absoluutselt ei usu...

See üheülbaline hullumeelseks lahterdamine on lihtsalt tüütu, seda enam, et ma pole kunagi absoluutselt uskunud, et Breivik võiks olla süüdimatu. Tegelikult võiks küsida, et kes siin see süüdimatu on...Videosid temast kohtuprotsessist on kõik kohad täis, tema pilte on kõik kohad täis, tema propagandavideo on kõigile vaadatav ning lisaks näidatakse seda kohtus, iga tema riietuseset, näoilmet, liigutust ja detailikest tema välimuses kommenteeritakse, tema manifest/ideoloogia on täies mahus igaühele loetav ja kõigele lisaks - tal lastakse kohtusaalis kõnepuldis rahumeeli oma manifesti esitada. Oli vist 70 minutit selle kõne kestus. See viimane asjaolu oligi minu jaoks kõige naljakam. Kui sellest oleks ka videoülekanne tehtud, siis ma oleks tõesti aplodeerinud ja kõva häälega naernud. Tõepoolest, kogu see kemplus aurukatla ümber tundub lihtsalt naeruväärne, tobe ja...süüdimatu. Olen teadlik, et ise laiendan ka tema haaret temast kirjutades, kuid mind see ei morjenda üldse.

Eelnevate aspektide põhjal jääb mulle üha rohkem mulje, et Breivik on kogu sellest jandist intellektuaalselt niivõrd palju üle. Esiteks on ta saavutanud kõik, mis tal kavas oli. Erinevalt teistest on tema tegevus läbimõeldud, kõik eelnevalt ettenähtud ning tema hoiak on vankumatu ning täiesti ebaemotsionaalselt külm ja ratsionaalne. Niikaua kui inimesed oma emotsionaalsest lahmimisest üle ei saa ega ratsionaalsust ei ilmuta, jääbki ta neist üle olema...Jah, uskumatu kui lollid võivad inimesed olla ning kuidas üksainus inimene suudab tervet ühiskonda nii palju mõjutada. Mis puutub minusse endasse, siis see, et antud isik on mulle teatud osas sümpaatne, siis see ei tähenda, et tal oleks õnnestunud oma ideoloogiat mulle mingilgi määral üle kanda. Sest seda propagandat on ta üritanud teha juba aastaid ning poliitika on olnud tema jaoks sisuliselt keskne teema juba väga palju aastaid.

Järgmine samm on see, et Breivik avaldab oma vangis kirjutatud raamatu. Tunnistan jällegi, loeksin suure huviga. Kui mina siin arvasin, et on iseenesest mõistetav, et seda raamatut vähemalt tema eluajal keegi ei näe (nagu videosid tema tunnistustest kohtus), siis ma vist eksisin..Nimelt lugesin üht artiklit (vist norrakeelne), kus ühe kirjastuse peatoimetaja vms ütles, et Breivik leiab üsna kindlasti kirjastuse, kes on nõus tema raamatut avaldama. Bloody hell! Ma polekski arvanud, et probleem on kirjastaja leidmises, vaid et sellist asja võimude poolt lihtsalt ei lubataks. Aga kes teab, maailm on ikka väga kummaline...

Veelgi kummalisem on see, et Breivik tahtis oma mundris kohtusaali tulla, kuid loobus sellest vaid seetõttu, et    psühhiaatrid istuvad kohtus ning see olnuks järjekordselt hea aines teda suurushullustuse ja luulude käes vaevleva "päästjana" kujutada. Selle peale tekkis mul taas küsimus: what the fuck? Kas tõesti oleks olnud võimalik, et ta oleks võinud oma mundris kohtusaali ilmuda??? Võib-olla ta oleks võinud isegi enda embleeme kasutada või mingit moslemivaenulikku loosungit. Jesus!!! Kui talle antakse võimalus esineda oma ideoloogia propagandaga nagu kirikuõpetaja kantslis, siis vist on kõik võimalik.

Mis on veel väga kummaline, on asjaolu, et tema manifest on igaühele kättesaadav ja seda täies mahus. Põhimõtteliselt on antud manifest sõna otseses mõttes "the whole package". Ülimalt põhjalik jüngrivärbamisvahend. Sealt saab teada tõepoolest kõike. Kogu ideoloogia, ajalugu, põhimõtted, kuidas mingites olukordades käituda, käitumisjuhised. Rääkimata parimast osast, mida võiks nimetada pommiretseptiks. Aga mis seal imestada, arvestades, et ka Breivik sai kogu vajaliku info internetist. Põhimõtteliselt on tal seal kõik vajaminevad ained vajalikes mahtudes kirjas, lisaks kattevarjuks põhjendused, milleks neid aineid veel kasutada saab. Isegi 30 päevale lühendatud tegevuskava pommivalmistamisest, mis on tehtud tagantjärgi, kuna Breivik tegi kõike katse-eksitus meetodil.

Ühesõnaga, kes tahab jätkata Breiviku teed, siis tänu manifestile on tal kõik olemas. Seega, kui sa oled terrorist, siis lugedes seda manifesti, saad kõik vajalikud juhtnöörid. Ja ei, see lause ei ole mingi kood.

Minu suur kartus on muidugi see, et millalgi võetakse see manifest maha ning ma ei saagi enam selle "haige psühhi" "haiglaseid mõtteid" lugeda:D Viimaseid hinnanguid olen kuulnud ka enda kohta juba aastaid tagasi...jaa, hingelähedus on tore asi:D

Kena lugu on ka see, et Breivik ise on tunnistanud, et on jah nartsissistlik...ja meedia pakub talle sellest olenemata kõike, mida saab. Ometi ma päris ei nõustu nendega, kes usuvad, et ta mõnuleb täiel rinnal kogu selle tähelepanu keskel. Jah, kuigi enda väitel loobus ta tüüpilisest ülimalt egotsentrilisest, nartsissistlikust ja karjeristlikust elust, et ennast oma riigi ja Euroopa heaks ohverdada, siis ma arvan, et selles motiivis on siiski paras annus seda sama egotsentrilisust ja nartsissismi. Sest sellega ta sai end ajalukku kirjutada, oma väikses ühenduses keskse rolli võtta jne. Ta sai selle missiooniga oma elule mingi suurema tähenduse ja tähtsuse anda, kui võtta seda tema vaatepunktist. Samas, kui ta esimestel kohtupäevadel naeratas ja näiliselt kaifis tähelepanu, siis viimane nädal aega tundub ta küll lihtsalt tõsine ja üsnagi tülpinud. Täiesti tavaline ülitõsine põhjamaine ilme, klassikaline eestlase ilme, ma ei tea, mida inimesed siis ootavad, et see neid nii hämmastab. Nutmist? Närvivapustust? Punastamist? 

Ja kui inimesed tõlgendavad tema riietuse kallal kohmitsemist jms tahtmisena kaamera ees võimalikult hea välja näha, siis mina olen küll siiani näinud rohkem kohmetust ja ebamugavustunnet. No wonder, kui kõigi pilgud/kaamerad on sinul ja iga detaili su käitumises ja välimuses kommenteeritakse...

Ausalt öeldes ma tõesti imestan, et tal senini mingeid arvestatavaid poolehoidjaid pole. Võimalik, et isegi tema väike templirüütlite ringkond ei kiida seda Utøya tapatalgut heaks.

Samas, kogu nende "ordu" põhimõte rajanebki salajasusel. Propaganda on olemas, kõik on olemas, aga kuidas antud inimestega üldse ühendust saada, ei kujuta ette. Pakun, et parim idee on vastava sisuga sooviavaldus suvalisse kohta üles panna...mis muidugi tagab selle, et sooviavaldaja võimude pilgu alla satub.

Kui selle ühenduse tegevuse käik seisnebki selles, et igaüks tegutseb üksinda ja täielikus diskreetsuses/isolatsioonis, siis võib vabalt olla, et mingis suvalises maailma otsas meisterdab praegu keegi Breivik vol 2 ülimas rahus pommi vms. Siiani pole midagi juhtunud...22. juuli?

Samamoodi võib praegu mõni Breivik vol 2 neid ridu siin lugeda.

(Breiviku farm)

See postitus polnud mõeldud kuidagi tema mustast valgeks muutmiseks, kui see ehk nii tunduda võis.

Kui nüüd kellelegi jäi ebaselgeks, mis minu hinnang või arvamus antud isiku kohta ikkagi on, siis selgitan lühidalt:

selgelt obsessiivne, maniakaalne, radikaalne, egoistlik, egotsentriline, nartsissistlik, enda välimusele suurt rõhku pöörav, tavatu mõtlemisega, teatava suurusehullustusega, kuid ilmselgelt mitte hullumeelne ega süüdimatu. Võib-olla teatud psühhopaatlike omadustega: suudab inimestega manipuleerida, külmalt ja tundetult kahju teha. Kuid selle kõige juures väga intelligentne, väga järjekindel, väga suure eneseusuga, enesekindel, iseseisev, sõltumatu, ilmselgelt väga julge, vaimukas, kainelt kalkuleeriv, väga hea enesekontrolliga, väga hea enesedistsipliiniga, igas mõttes tugev isiksus, vastupidav, väga läbinägelik, väga teadmishimuline, äärmiselt põhimõttekindel, ülikõrge motivatsiooniga, kõike seda arvestades ilmselgelt väga mehelik ja maskuliinne.

Loetelu esimene osa on nagu ta on, aga suur osa neist omadustest iseloomustab ka mind. Ma arvan, et seda loetelu vaadates ei teki mul vähemalt iseenda ees mingit küsimust, miks ta mulle meeldib... M.O.T.T

Ja üleüldse, ma arvan, et kogu saladus seisneb lihtsalt selles, et ta on veevalaja:D Neid ma armastan iga aastaga üha rohkem, sest ma olen elupõline originaalsuse jumaldaja. Päriselt ka, ma tean peale tema veel 3 veevalajat, keda ma lihtsalt ülimalt imetlen. Mis teha, kindlaim viis minus täiesti maniakaalset vaimustust tekitada on olla täiesti erakordne, tavatu ja originaalne isiksus. Ma võiksin neid 3 inimest ülistama jäädagi, sest nende äärmine sügavus, inimhinge tundmine, mõistmisvõime, tolerantsus, intelligentsus, erakordne läbinägelikkus, mõttemaailma originaalsus tekitavad minus jätkuvalt sellist imetlust, et ma võiksin neid lihtsalt tunde suu ammuli vahtida. Ühega neist mul loodetavasti varsti see võimalus ka avaneb.

Teisega neist oli palju kummalisi momente, hahaa...Minu kiiks ja seda pole kellegi teisega olnud, aga iga kord teda nähes tekkis mingi veider hingesuguluse tunne, "I know you, you know me", olgugi, et me pole isegi kunagi rääkinud ja tema minu kohta ilmselt midagi ei tea. Sellele vaatamata tekkis igakord mingi naljakaskummaline üksteisele otsa jõllitamise moment. Näen teda eemalt tulemas, jõnks käib läbi, vahin ülejäänud aja mujale või maha, möödumishetkel vaatan siiski üles ja näen, et jälle ta vahib mulle otse otsa:D

Mul on vist imepärane äratundmisoskus, sest ka tema ma nö tundsin ära esimeste sekundite jooksul. Mäletan seda väga hästi nagu ka paari teise inimese puhul. Näen inimest 2 sekundit külje pealt ja mu reaktsioon mõttes on "mine metsa!!!"...and I know.

Hahaa, jälle ma peksan keset ööd segast samast inimesest!:D Ilmselge, mis bändi ma nüüd selle peale kuulama hakkasin (mitte Lüüpi)...

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